The next day I did a phone session with Micheline. I had done shamanic work with her long before, but hadn’t connected with her in years; now I was able to, thanks to a gift from my friend Margit. I told Micheline about the transformation of the day before, and wasn’t sure that we could possibly do any deeper healing than I had already done.Micheline felt that I now needed to completely step into my new energy body.
In order to do this, we first needed to clear out both my own identification with “stage IV cancer,” which was holding me down and keeping me sick, and the energy of worry that people who loved me were inadvertently sending.
She looked to see who was available to help clear the energy of worry, and there was my old friend, Green Tara. Green Tara is a very active form of Tara, Tara of Action, who easily transmutes obstacles. She is pictured about to rise from a seated position, showing her energy of “going forth.”
She conveys the green ray, a ray of healing and deep love. Micheline brought my awareness to Green Tara who was there streaming the green ray, clearing out the energy of worry carried by loved ones.
Then she sensed that there was an emotional energy that was keeping me sick. She saw a picture of me holding up each of my hands and flinging my energy between the extremes that each hand held: one hand being the “worst case scenario” of complete sickness, and other hand being complete paradise. She asked me to slowly bring my hands together over my heart so that I could live in a non-dual energy that encompassed everything.
And then she asked me to release myself from this body and all of my identity as a person with “stage IV cancer,” to let go, and as I did, to let my body slump over. As I did this, she saw in front of me the “portal” to the new me. She asked who would accompany me through this portal, and there arrived the rose-pink light that has so often been with me in this journey. As I stepped through the portal I stepped into my new being; the energy of complete love. In this body I no longer needed to run around and prostrate myself in the name of “service;” I simply needed to be love.
As I stepped into this body, a gold light appeared to show my cells perfect programming.
-golden light entering my cells from my collage/painting
As this session finished, I knew that I was now in the healing stream. I knew that my cells would follow the direction of my spirit, and that gradually my body would heal.
A few days later, on the lunar new year, I made this collage/painting about my transformation in the year of the horse. The images from the last two posts are from it. The central image is White Tara, the goddess of healing illness, as painted by Carmen Mensink.